my acts of idiocy still amaze me.  though many of you may not be so surprised. 

this year for Christmas, our family gave a gift of obedience to Jesus.  we chose an area that we wished to be more obedient in toward Christ.  we wrote them on paper and gave them to Jesus for His birthday.

mine?

“Pray Sooner”

prayer tends to be an afterthought for me.  when i’m walking through a difficult situation i want to seek counsel on it immediately.  but my first counsel is rarely God.  though it may be Godly people… they’re not God.  though i may still counsel with them, they should be secondary to talking it out with God.

so that was my gift.  sounds simple enough.  and yet it just occurred to me i’ve been avoiding it for two weeks.

i’ve had some difficult conversations and tough situations to work through these past few weeks.  still more to come.  it’s just that season in ministry.  and yet i’ve spent little to no time in prayer.  i’ve found creative ways to distract myself.  ridiculous methods of avoidance.

and here i stand 2 weeks later still with the need to know the Father’s heart in these matters.

feeling sheepish for waiting so long.