The past few months of my life have been filled with healing, refocusing, working and grabbing as much time with my family as possible. I haven’t blogged much… as you know. Every time I think about my silence on Jabberfrog I remind myself of a comment Kem Meyers made one time.

When things at home and work are healthy… I blog. When things at home and work aren’t healthy… I don’t blog. (loosely paraphrased… it was a long time ago.)

Things in my life have been very busy the past few months… and spiritual battle has been intense. I wish I could say that I’ve fought with some measure of endurance… but the truth is there were many times I hid from it.

My method of hiding is television. I grew up in front of it. It became a means of escape as a kid. Now, it’s just automatic. I know I’m avoiding something if all I want to do is ‘veg’ in front of the boob-tube.

So the battle becomes a series of successes and failures. Moments I don’t feel like confronting… just feel like evading. The Holy Spirit asking me to connect with Him, as I click on the ‘one-eyed-monster’ to connect with Deadliest Catch. Gratefully there are moments I refuse to quit fighting… pick up God’s Word… speak it out loud… and claim it as truth despite whether or not I believe it.

I’m still in the battle. And physically tired in the midst. But I know what lies on the other side is a stronger rooting in Jesus. All I know is I must remain by the stream. Speak His Word… despite how I feel. As long as I do this, my roots will grow deeper… stronger.

But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.

Digging deeper in this season of growth means a season of harvest will follow. Fruit is to come and the harvesting of that fruit is very rewarding.

So, I’ll continue to battle. Dig into the relationships God has intentionally placed in my life. Pour myself out.

It’s the only way I know I’ll find laughter and joy in the midst of the storm.